Just Keep Swimming, You Are On The Right Track

SHE’S BACK!!!!!!

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This throw over sheer kimono is from BOOHOO, I have it in white aswell. But I could literally wear this with all my outfits. All seasons round item; I would say this kimono is one of my faves.

It’s been nearly a year since I’ve written anything. So many things can happen in a year or even a couple of months. Time tends to fly by and we get slapped in the face and wrapped up in our own little bubble with the existence we call ‘Life’. We are learning and evolving every day. Have you ever thought you was happy in a relationship, when actually you wasn’t the whole time? I mean I think we do see the red flags at the beginning stages of meeting/dating someone. We just tend to ignore them and give them all the chance. We all love chances, but as a dear friend of mine would say…

Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice shame on me.

I LOVE IT ! Please lovely ladies, don’t ignore your sadness and don’t allow someone to make you feel like you are crazy or tell you that you are sad because of other reasons; stand your ground and find the root of what is making you feel that certain way and speak up! Be heard girlfriend. We can fall in love with a controlling selfish lover or with someone who just doesn’t want to hear your voice. Don’t just settle for anything and know your worth. I always have a gut feeling but I never go with it, I will do now, trust me haha! I’m starting to learn that I’ve always knew what was right for me, but I lacked in power and lost my strength to speak up. It will take time to find your full power or maybe you have that strength already, if so, make sure every decision you make is for you and you know that it will bring long term happiness.

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This outfit is PRETTY LITTLE THING. This is a Co-ord; skirt and blouse. I do love the print but the skirt is quite thin material so if I re-wear the skirt in the winter I will have to put some tights on or over the knee boots with it. The blouse you can wear all seasons round, especially in winter with a pair of  jeans but I’ve just tied it in a knot for a this summer look. P.s I was in Marrakech two weeks ago.

I went through my first break up (I’m sure you’ve all been there before). I feel like everyone should experience heart break because it really has strengthened me in all aspects in my life. I now will always speak my mind and make sure I am doing what I want to do. I was with an emotionally abusive partner and I was unintentionally or intentionally put down and made to feel I had no say in my relationship. I was ignored and ignored for 2 years and a half, and i only realised I was until I left the the relationship. HOW!? How was I so blind? I guess we can be blinded by love; unhealthy love can just really leave some bruises on our hearts. I became addictively co-dependent and I never thought I would have due to my strong independence before my relationship; I guess this is where we learn our lessons. The process of breaking up was not fun but I can admit I now feel free. I wouldn’t say I hate or despise my ex because I’ve learnt everything I need to know for myself and I now know how to keep strong and keep my power and self worth. No one should gain the power to bring you down unless you hand it to them. So we cant blame anyone else but ourselves.

WHEN LIFE GETS YOU DOWN, DO YOU WNNA KNOW WHAT YOU’VE GOTTA DO? JUST KEEP SWIMMING! – Dory (Finding Nemo)

If you haven’t watched Finding Nemo and feel like you can be a child for a couple of hours, go and watch Finding Nemo.

XOXO SAMARA XOXO

Day To Day Thinking

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Train delays. You’ve been annoying.

TfL have been awful this week and the funny thing is, we can’t doing anything about it. We just have to accept that we will be late for work but i can always see the stress in everyone’s faces. Everyone who was on my tube is most likely to be late as-well, so technically we are never alone. I’m so happy I had 9 hours sleep some nights, also my body is dying from head to toe from the amazing routines I’ve learnt for the show this week. I always know when I can’t sit on the toilet seat with out holding on to something that i have worked hard. It’s been an intense week for me with rehearsals, I’ve been wearing my sports wear all week! Yesterday my anxiety was really high and when it is i always want to blame it on the contraceptive pill; that plays with our hormones; because we shouldn’t really be putting that into our bodies but we all do anyway, Ha! It’s so not good for our hormones (slight breakdown). I realised i just needed more food and more rest because my body needed fuel to keep me strong whilst working out more than it’s used to. So always remember that when you get emotional make sure you eat a massive meal, have some tea and sleep!!!! Please beauty queens, before you have a BREAKDOWN. Diva in the house.

I hate when i stress about little things in advance before the event has even happened or trying to work out a situation that isn’t even there. Why am i making up the worst scenario/Hollywood movie in my head, when nothing has even happened yet. I’m always planning on the worst stuff to happen. Why do i care so much, when nothing has even happened? I seem we all can tend to just make up situations in our head when that wasn’t exactly what happened, we over analyse every step and moment! I need to just leave it at where it is because in the end no one actually cares, only i do. Even my body, i was comparing myself to others all week, as most of us do as performers, we tend to always be looking for that ”dancer body’ or we assume we wont get hired for a job, that’s all rubbish! No one actually really cares about size, they just want to see our talent, but once we believe in ourself truly, they’re not even looking for that. Of course for performers it is casted our looks; that makes it harder for us; to make sure everyone looks good together as a company, but that’s not our issue to worry about and the next job will be round the corner.

Lets take a breath this weekend and forget our everything. Lets just live and eattttt!!!!


I ordered some moreeee clothes yesterday!!! Asos at its finest.

I’m so excited to get wearing these during my rehearsals, the snake-skin print leggings blend in with my skin tone and I’m soooo impressed with the quality of them. I’ve always loved a Bershka running leggings, I’ve had a pair for 2 year and they’ve lasted so long! The quality must be good to last as long as that! So excited to get dancing around in these. Who doesn’t love a print!?

Yes yes yes to black! If you don’t know what to wear, choose black! This is 100% a sexy number, if you are brave enough get this outfit on with some black skinny jeans. This outfit is for a night out to a date night with your loved one/friends. Always nice to change things up. I love a bell sleeve and an off shoulder!


Thank you for ready you crazy fun ladies!

XOXO SAMARA

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Lets Live 2018

Is it just me or do you all who write blogs or love reading blogs, love drinking tea whilst doing so? Maybe wine.

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Bringing new-ness into 2018. I really want to try/do new things in my spare time. I want to keep my energies running free with all the amazing things there are in life. I think going on tour next year will give me the opportunity to change things up and go with the flow. I want to be able to make sure i tell myself everyday that i am capable of all the tasks i take on, and i think you sexy women are too. We can do this, we can make next year the best year we want it to be. I know everyone says, “why does it take New Years for people to change their ways”, no, we will continue to be the amazing women we are but we are going to add extra amazing assets to our life and personality. I just want to smileeeeeee everyday! Which is impossible. Nothing is impossible, but life is not easy. If life was easy, we will have everything we needed and be lazy as hell!

Make sure you bring that full you into 2018, lets not hold back on thoughts and feelings. Let embrace every situation and be in control of how we react to these situations. Staying calm when you think a storm is about to blow. When you stay calm in stressful situations, you win! Be in control of yourself, there is actually no reason why we should not. No one can control us, right!

Shall we try and be nicer to the people around us and start giving off nice gestures as much as possible. It doesn’t just bring positivity to you but it makes you a stronger/beautiful women. Lets just be excited about the amazing person that we are all going to be next year! Lets dress up everyday and show them how we run our own catwalk, we have our own runway and we are going to run that walk. Yes yes yes! I’m feeling so inspired and i love that feeling. We don’t just have that simple career, simple love and simple family. We are not simple. Please try and travel as much as you can next year and do the biggest thing you’ve ever wanted to do, save up and do it!

Can we just eat, and live how we want to live. Lets not stress this year about how we look because i think this year really set me high on emotions from all those fake instagram post. It’s crazy, we don’t all have to look social media acceptable. It’s all rubbish. You in that mirror is acceptable. I’m going to eat and drink what i love, but in moderations. I’m going work out 3 times a week and chill the hell out! We can’t spend years of our life missing out on that cake we wanted! I’m currently laughing at my own joke. Laugh more.

We Like To Party !!

Lets smile, one more day left of 2017!

Samara XOXO

I’m Leaving You Behind In 2017!

5A30AC5C-352B-4FED-BF28-1152CD3F0FDD.pngA few things i’m going to be leaving behind in 2017 and starting my new year fresh.

I’m going to be getting rid of those toxic people. When you realise all your friends that want to be in your life are still in your life. We don’t need to keep everyone we have met this year along with us to 2018, there is no need. Of course, if they message or call me i will be nice and catch up, but you know the people that bring you happiness and positivity, the people who make you smile and bring that amazing side out of you. I love the people who i feel 100% comfortable around, who you can be yourself around without feeling that you are being judge. We are not silly, we do know from our instinct and we should make sure we keep ourselves happy from within and when we are with the people we love, that is always possible. I hate when i feel negative energy from people, maybe its me, maybe they had a bad day, but i feel like i shouldn’t be treated unfairly when I’m bringing smiles and compliments their way. But they do not have to like me, i just hate being spoken/treated like rubbish.

Letting go of stressing about the future and things i can’t control. I love to stress about the next step, but really every time i have, there has be no need to. All the outcomes have been amazing. I admire those women i see who stay calm in crazy situations, and women who have that i don’t care attitude. I mean, i love the passionate and spiritual women out there but i need to find a calm way of dealing with things, find that “zen” spirit as they say. So next year I’m really going to focus on not stressing about the things I’m not in control of or the things that i cant change right this minute. I’m really not good at starting new things. I start my new job in January and I’m already having anxiety about leaving germany for the 100th time. Im going to be travelling around Europe for 18 months and I’m going to be leaving my love behind, its not easy. I stress about things that i just don’t know how its going to turn out; but i will never know until i start; like i did this year, but in the end i know i will have an amazing time!

One more thing I’m leaving behind this year is some of my clothes that i just need to get rid off. Before i start my tour I’m going to get rid of all the old clothes that i keep because i did like them and the clothes that i think i might need. To be honest, the clothes i haven’t touched the whole year, i doubt i’m going to wear it next year. I can’t bring my whole wardrobe with me, so I’m going to just bring all my favourite outfits and workout clothes and sadly leave the rest behind. It’s so hard packing for 18 months, but there is always shops and online shopping everywhere you go. I’m sure i’ll be fine. Less is better i say, the more i can buy!!


Here are some items I purchased on Asos last night!!

Vinyl coat and vinyl trousers, i just browsed through a few vinyl items and now i am obsessed, i love the look of vinly as it is so chic and vintage. Giving you that edge and high street look, yet you can totally dress it up with a glam dress or a pair of heels. It’s just soooo different.

Bringing in some bright and fun colours into my wardrobe with some beautiful textures. The Silk pink tracksuit flare pants are sooooooo cool, I’m obsessed with them already and i can’t wait to get wearing them. The beautiful yellow scarf dress is beautiful, i will be wearing this dress at all hours of the day, a casual shopping day out to getting some cocktails! Heels and trainers, are we bothered!


Well, I’m sure your going to keep some amazing things with you this year, and i will be posting about the stuff i will be keeping tomorrow. Thank you for reading. Stay glowing!

XOXO Samara