Just Keep Swimming, You Are On The Right Track

SHE’S BACK!!!!!!

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This throw over sheer kimono is from BOOHOO, I have it in white aswell. But I could literally wear this with all my outfits. All seasons round item; I would say this kimono is one of my faves.

It’s been nearly a year since I’ve written anything. So many things can happen in a year or even a couple of months. Time tends to fly by and we get slapped in the face and wrapped up in our own little bubble with the existence we call ‘Life’. We are learning and evolving every day. Have you ever thought you was happy in a relationship, when actually you wasn’t the whole time? I mean I think we do see the red flags at the beginning stages of meeting/dating someone. We just tend to ignore them and give them all the chance. We all love chances, but as a dear friend of mine would say…

Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice shame on me.

I LOVE IT ! Please lovely ladies, don’t ignore your sadness and don’t allow someone to make you feel like you are crazy or tell you that you are sad because of other reasons; stand your ground and find the root of what is making you feel that certain way and speak up! Be heard girlfriend. We can fall in love with a controlling selfish lover or with someone who just doesn’t want to hear your voice. Don’t just settle for anything and know your worth. I always have a gut feeling but I never go with it, I will do now, trust me haha! I’m starting to learn that I’ve always knew what was right for me, but I lacked in power and lost my strength to speak up. It will take time to find your full power or maybe you have that strength already, if so, make sure every decision you make is for you and you know that it will bring long term happiness.

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This outfit is PRETTY LITTLE THING. This is a Co-ord; skirt and blouse. I do love the print but the skirt is quite thin material so if I re-wear the skirt in the winter I will have to put some tights on or over the knee boots with it. The blouse you can wear all seasons round, especially in winter with a pair of  jeans but I’ve just tied it in a knot for a this summer look. P.s I was in Marrakech two weeks ago.

I went through my first break up (I’m sure you’ve all been there before). I feel like everyone should experience heart break because it really has strengthened me in all aspects in my life. I now will always speak my mind and make sure I am doing what I want to do. I was with an emotionally abusive partner and I was unintentionally or intentionally put down and made to feel I had no say in my relationship. I was ignored and ignored for 2 years and a half, and i only realised I was until I left the the relationship. HOW!? How was I so blind? I guess we can be blinded by love; unhealthy love can just really leave some bruises on our hearts. I became addictively co-dependent and I never thought I would have due to my strong independence before my relationship; I guess this is where we learn our lessons. The process of breaking up was not fun but I can admit I now feel free. I wouldn’t say I hate or despise my ex because I’ve learnt everything I need to know for myself and I now know how to keep strong and keep my power and self worth. No one should gain the power to bring you down unless you hand it to them. So we cant blame anyone else but ourselves.

WHEN LIFE GETS YOU DOWN, DO YOU WNNA KNOW WHAT YOU’VE GOTTA DO? JUST KEEP SWIMMING! – Dory (Finding Nemo)

If you haven’t watched Finding Nemo and feel like you can be a child for a couple of hours, go and watch Finding Nemo.

XOXO SAMARA XOXO

Crystals, New People and Spontaneous Shopping Trips

I’ve been trying to find a lot of me time recently and it hasn’t been the easiest when I’ve been at work everyday for 9 hours, 6 days a week. I feel slightly suffocated when I’m around the same people 24/7, it can be hard to be patient with different people, as we are all trying to get to know each other still. I am only 2 months in to my contract and it’s been hard to let people in bit by bit when i know i have to spend the next 18 months with them. It’s always natural to make a closer bond with a couple of people, as its human. I think it’s important to stick to those natural connections and surround yourself with those people who you feel closer with because they will keep you smiling. I also think it’s important to keep that effort with the rest of your employees because it is polite and it should really not affect your own energy.

I learnt that I need to make sure i do a couple of things a week that keep me in track with myself, even if its spread out during the week and i go for that coffee date or cinema trip to just forget about work and zone out. I realised I really neeeed this! We all need to just find that calm in all of the drama in our crazy life. Ah, i read about our every day shower can be therapeutic, as in we rush and make getting ready just a casual routine and it’s always rushed for us to get out of the house. But if you really try to make sure you make enough time to enjoy your shower and get ready, with some music in the background, feeling the water against your skin. Showering should be therapeutic, make it part of the day where you just you can’t wait to shower or bathe. Make it a breather for you to wake yourself up or to wind you down after a long day. Showering should be one of your favourite times of the day!


img_1006I bought a rose quartz crystal and a dream catcher last week sunday. The rose quartz represents unconditional love and self-love, so I’m trying to really work on self-love this year by just really appreciating who i am and realising that i am beautiful and sexy. I mean I found it very strange to even write that down. So, women there is always a start, get that pen and paper and write it down. See how you feel, say it aloud and see how you feel. We have to work on actually feeling it without becoming arrogant, but single ladies once you embrace that beauty you will find your match. Surprisingly, it all goes down hill again when you get into relationships because you want to just impress your partner naturally and be that sexy lady, but that is all just your natural thoughts going crazy. Just stay calm because your man is with you because you are sexy and beautiful, embrace it.

I was browsing around the shops with my friend and decided to just buy clothes to go out that night; this is not the first time I’ve just bought clothes there and then and changed in the changing rooms for the night. I mean we wasn’t dressed indecent, but we just wanted something to wear straight away to hit the bars. Please tell me, we are not the only ones who have done this? So we got some bottles and then went back to hers to get ready and then we didn’t even leave the house!!! Hilarious, we just sat there drinking and chatting to her house mate. It was so perfect, with our favourite tunes in the background. So women, always go with the flow because now i have a spare sexy outfit ready for a cheeky night out. I feel this is going to be the norm whilst travelling. Woopsy!

We need to get out more often. Be free.

XOXO Samara XOXO

WE LIVE LIKE ROBOTS

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We all have times when we get really busy and we get a sudden rush of having to do a million of things at the same time. If you spread your work out; breath and take your time with everything; you will most likely get more things done than rushing, panicking and trying to get it done all at once. Really try to chill out and relax when you have a lot on your plate. One step at a time. Trust me, i put that into practice today and most likely the whole tour because i have to cover two main roles in the musical I’m doing (Matilda). Find that calm state you think you don’t have, especially as women as we have so much hormones running through our bodies. We don’t want an easy life.

I love people watching, especially on the tube or at coffee shops. People are so interesting and they all have their own story and individual life going on, it’s mad. Everyone on their own journey. I find it so therapeutic wondering what’s going on in their tiny little brains. We all look like robots sometimes when we pace about from door to door and totally forget to take our time to breathe in that air that surround us. I think everyone naturally feels tired in the morning, but why moan and depress ourself when we can just embrace it for what it is and then try to rest in the evening. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I’m shattered but i got no where complaining and dwelling on it. So now, I’m really trying to find that relaxed state and just eating the right things when i feel this way. Even when i know i have some time to rest i think it will be wise to close my eyes for a couple of minutes and just be. Then your day off arrives and you can either start the day with your schedule and then get on that sofa and zone out for a bit. There is always time.

SMILE AND SIT BACK, NO ONE IS RUSHING YOU

We always have to be somewhere at certain at a time. I would say just set your alarm early or find a way where you can chill and do what’s best for you before you have to reach your destination/work. Just find a calm before you have to start challenging that amazing brain of ours. If I have to get up early i’m going to really try waking up earlier to put some good things in my body instead of rushing out without any fuel and starting work on an empty. Lets try to build and create our own life we want to live, really trying to be in control what we do instead of the way of life forcing us to get into that boring routine where we just end up all in a terrible mess.


Deep post today. I just feel it’s really important to make yourself feel good, right?!

Here’s some new in ASOS items i loved today.

How do you feel about grey? I love the nude and subtle colours, AND BLACK! On the left we have the Bloch heels which always goes well with jeans or a dress, Bloch heels are just so much more comfy than thing heeled shoes. So if you are ready for a long night out than these are the shoes for you! Heels just slightly under the knee, i would dress these with blue jeans and the love slogan jumper from Topshop that i posted yesterday. Snazzy!!

 

This blue velvet jacket is such a beautiful colour. It worn at all times especially when it starts getting warmer, hopefully! I never wear long skirts but those long-legged stunning women out there please put them on. This hot-shot pink colour is everything!! Girl, you dying to pick up all the compliments wearing this.


 

Thank you for reading

XOXO SAMARA

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I’m Leaving You Behind In 2017!

5A30AC5C-352B-4FED-BF28-1152CD3F0FDD.pngA few things i’m going to be leaving behind in 2017 and starting my new year fresh.

I’m going to be getting rid of those toxic people. When you realise all your friends that want to be in your life are still in your life. We don’t need to keep everyone we have met this year along with us to 2018, there is no need. Of course, if they message or call me i will be nice and catch up, but you know the people that bring you happiness and positivity, the people who make you smile and bring that amazing side out of you. I love the people who i feel 100% comfortable around, who you can be yourself around without feeling that you are being judge. We are not silly, we do know from our instinct and we should make sure we keep ourselves happy from within and when we are with the people we love, that is always possible. I hate when i feel negative energy from people, maybe its me, maybe they had a bad day, but i feel like i shouldn’t be treated unfairly when I’m bringing smiles and compliments their way. But they do not have to like me, i just hate being spoken/treated like rubbish.

Letting go of stressing about the future and things i can’t control. I love to stress about the next step, but really every time i have, there has be no need to. All the outcomes have been amazing. I admire those women i see who stay calm in crazy situations, and women who have that i don’t care attitude. I mean, i love the passionate and spiritual women out there but i need to find a calm way of dealing with things, find that “zen” spirit as they say. So next year I’m really going to focus on not stressing about the things I’m not in control of or the things that i cant change right this minute. I’m really not good at starting new things. I start my new job in January and I’m already having anxiety about leaving germany for the 100th time. Im going to be travelling around Europe for 18 months and I’m going to be leaving my love behind, its not easy. I stress about things that i just don’t know how its going to turn out; but i will never know until i start; like i did this year, but in the end i know i will have an amazing time!

One more thing I’m leaving behind this year is some of my clothes that i just need to get rid off. Before i start my tour I’m going to get rid of all the old clothes that i keep because i did like them and the clothes that i think i might need. To be honest, the clothes i haven’t touched the whole year, i doubt i’m going to wear it next year. I can’t bring my whole wardrobe with me, so I’m going to just bring all my favourite outfits and workout clothes and sadly leave the rest behind. It’s so hard packing for 18 months, but there is always shops and online shopping everywhere you go. I’m sure i’ll be fine. Less is better i say, the more i can buy!!


Here are some items I purchased on Asos last night!!

Vinyl coat and vinyl trousers, i just browsed through a few vinyl items and now i am obsessed, i love the look of vinly as it is so chic and vintage. Giving you that edge and high street look, yet you can totally dress it up with a glam dress or a pair of heels. It’s just soooo different.

Bringing in some bright and fun colours into my wardrobe with some beautiful textures. The Silk pink tracksuit flare pants are sooooooo cool, I’m obsessed with them already and i can’t wait to get wearing them. The beautiful yellow scarf dress is beautiful, i will be wearing this dress at all hours of the day, a casual shopping day out to getting some cocktails! Heels and trainers, are we bothered!


Well, I’m sure your going to keep some amazing things with you this year, and i will be posting about the stuff i will be keeping tomorrow. Thank you for reading. Stay glowing!

XOXO Samara

Do You Find It Hard To Relax?

When you get some time off work, do you also find it hard to relax? I’ve had 5 weeks off this Christmas (which I am thankful for). I’m currently in between jobs at the moment and I’m finding it very difficult to just chill and put my head back. Do you think it’s the little things we love doing, that make us feel “relaxed”?

Relaxed = Free from tension and anxiety

Zen stones balancing with candles and a Buddha figureI did take up an intensive 7 day job dancing for Helene Fischer (one of the biggest pop stars in Germany), for her Christmas show, going live on the 25th of December on Channel ZDF. The job wasn’t relaxing but it was a fun experience and I was challenged in a style of dancing I haven’t done in years. I’ve done a lot more cooking than I have been doing this year, which I funnily enough find relaxing, especially with some music in the background. Then I found I got anxiety from doing nothing all day, it’s mad! In that tiny mind of mine I wasn’t relaxed, my mind was so use to thinking a million things at once. The feeling of sitting around wasn’t enough for my head. I don’t think I’m the only one who loves to be proactive, maybe the idea of doing house chores without rushing about is also relaxing. This week I’ve still managed to somehow to get myself into a little routine as in; getting up to make breakfast then relaxing and watching some christmas movies, I would then write some ideas for my blog, then I would slowly get up and do some yoga and maybe a strengthening video after with some dancing stretches to keep supple for my next job, finally I get out and wander around. You get the idea!

1A29D984-9EAF-421C-B50A-5F2D5A84C8BEI’m currently in German this Christmas season. I’m spending quality time with my love, which I can’t moan about! Sometimes we don’t get time to see the people we love enough, so doing what ever we can in our spare time to see our loved ones is alway nice.  It’s actually a really nice feeling. Not everyone has enough holidays and free time, so its trying to find the right balance to get your mind into that relaxing state. Germany is sooooo chilled and beautiful, so I shouldn’t complain about having nothing to do, but I did live here for a year and a half, so I know my way about. I do feel at home in Germany and I do love my local coffee shops which get me out. It’s perfect for me to write in different environments as It gets my brain waving and thinking about other things. For me getting some oxygen and fresh air gives me that amazing feeling too, if I don’t get out for at least an hour a day I don’t feel content, I feel agitated. It’s such a weird feeling and maybe I’m not alone with this.

I find doing exercises in my spare time also relaxing and it burns enough energy for me to actually relax my body. I feel like I should of tried to meditate at least 3 times a week and channel my focuses on all the amazing stuff that has gone on over the past year and accept all the amazing things to come. I don’t really walk around in parks in the winter, maybe I should grab my partner and go for a walk this christmas, and just enjoy the local amazing German parks in the winter. I do love a walk in a park but mostly in the summer. I did it for a whole year when I was living in Germany. OMGOSH, I forget my daily commute and how beautiful nature was to pass by. I took that for granted in London, I defiantly didn’t have any amazing parks on my commute to work, I had the underground. Now talking about London, I do feel very relaxed here on my break in Germany and I’m so happy I found the time open up my personal blogging website, it was the best idea this Christmas break and I am thankful.

What are you thankful for today?


Samara’s Monki Haul Christmas Online Shop

I’ve been a huge fan of Monki for years, and this year I feel like I have abandoned the brand. So I had a little browse this week and got some early sale items.

E506F841-759D-43F5-805C-1CF6B97B8854I’ve always wanted these eyelet detail jeans, the material is so thick. This vintage colour can never go wrong, I can put any type of top or jumper on with it. I love the lace on the side, it’s so this season!

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I’m Obessed with pink, I use to have this obsession with pink clothes and jumpers, so I’ve added a new one now. Again sticking to that vintage style, loose fit. Pure SASS.

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Tapered silk, high waisted with a loose fit. WOW, all my items today seem to be in a vinatge style.I only seem to wear high-waisted, I can’t deal with low waist jeans/trousers, as it just doesn’t suit my body. It’s always good to know what clothes suit your shape.

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Shiny classic top to go with all my snazzy pants and jeans, I’m going to wear this top on Christmas Day I think. It’s so cozy and snug, stretchy material! Perfect, because I will be eating everything the next few days!


 I hope you loved my discussion today, and my clothes haul!! Thank you for reading.

Samara xoxo

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Have You Got Time To Shop On The Hight-Street?

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Everyone always has mixed views about this topic. I want to start with online shopping, as I’m usually all over the place. I personally love to shop online. It’s so easy to use and it has every single retail store worldwide with most of them available to ship internationally or all over the eu. Which is amazing! There’s all these only online shopping retail websites now, ie; Missguided, In The Style, Pretty Little Things, how can i forget ASOS. Yes, Missguided did recently open a few high-street stores in the UK. A few people told me they are seasonal with high-street shopping.  I’m assuming more people are high-street shopping when the weather is nice, or when the streets are looking festive, that’s when I love to shop! Lie, I shop every day/every second I get, maybe not buying clothes everyday but I just love scanning through clothes. Now and then I do love running around in huge shopping malls, but I try to hit those non-peak times because I can’t stand too much people in my way.

Wouldn’t we all love it, if we could have the entire shopping mall all to ourselves. Getting out with friends/lovers are also a reason why we do love high-street shopping, it can make a really fun day out, especially around this time when you’re christmas shopping for others with friends. Sometimes we just don’t have any time to go walking about or to get that retail therapy in; so we thank apple for all our new hi-tech devices that we have now; giving all those hand tied people who can’t get out the opportunity to still get that banging outfit for the week-end. I mean, I bet a few of you guys just love a time consuming browse, why not!

I really think the idea of online or high street shopping depends on how we are feeling or if we physically have time too. They both benefit you in ways, but I personally would advise you to try and get some time and take yourself, on a date and browse those high-street stores you love, even if you don’t purchase anything/ don’t have the money, its okay. It’s very therapeutic to just roam around lost in your own thoughts. Have fun and go play!

JUST DO WHAT YOU LOVE TO DO, FORGET THE REST

XOXO SAMARA

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Make Your Dreams Real

There’s always rules in life and one of them is consistency within everything or anything you want to do. Be consistent. Try to practice or mentally train your mind to make it become a daily habit. Even by training your negative ways of thinking. We form habits and we can change habits. All about repetition. All the amazing ideas that you have in your head but you just don’t know when or how to start. You have to start somewhere, right? A tiny ounce of effort will always be enough as a start off, which then could creep into your life changing dream. Get on those feet women and build the life and the dreams that you want. Build the mind you always wanted. Keep that head high and shine.


Cinderella, look at these amazing ALDO 80s mixed fabric heels!

XOXO SAMARA