I’ve been trying to find a lot of me time recently and it hasn’t been the easiest when I’ve been at work everyday for 9 hours, 6 days a week. I feel slightly suffocated when I’m around the same people 24/7, it can be hard to be patient with different people, as we are all trying to get to know each other still. I am only 2 months in to my contract and it’s been hard to let people in bit by bit when i know i have to spend the next 18 months with them. It’s always natural to make a closer bond with a couple of people, as its human. I think it’s important to stick to those natural connections and surround yourself with those people who you feel closer with because they will keep you smiling. I also think it’s important to keep that effort with the rest of your employees because it is polite and it should really not affect your own energy.I learnt that i need to make sure i do a couple of things a week that keep me in track with myself, even if its spread out during the week and i go for that coffee date or cinema trip to just forget about work and zone out. I realised i really neeeed this! We all need to just find that calm in all of the drama in our crazy life. Ah, i read about our every day shower can be therapeutic, as in we rush and make getting ready just a casual routine and it’s always rushed for us to get out of the house. But if you really try to make sure you make enough time to enjoy your shower and get ready, with some music in the background, feeling the water against your skin. Showering should be therapeutic, make it part of the day where you just you can’t wait to shower or bathe. Make it a breather for you to wake yourself up or to wind you down after a long day. Showering should be one of your favourite times of the day!I bought a rose quartz crystal and a dream catcher last week sunday. The rose quartz represents unconditional love and self-love, so I’m trying to really work on self-love this year by just really appreciating who i am and realising that i am beautiful and sexy. I mean I found it very strange to even write that down. So, women there is always a start, get that pen and paper and write it down. See how you feel, say it aloud and see how you feel. We have to work on actually feeling it without becoming arrogant, but single ladies once you embrace that beauty you will find your match. Surprisingly it all goes down hill again when you get into relationships because you want to just impress your partner naturally and be that sexy lady, but that is all just your natural thoughts starting going crazy. Just stay calm because your man is with you because you are sexy and beautiful, embrace it with your partner. Walk around him with a smile and shake that booty whilst you walk, he will always be happy if you are, End of!I was browsing around the shops with my friend and decided to just buy clothes to go out that night; this is not the first time I’ve just bought clothes there and then and changed in the changing rooms for the night, we was in decent clothes but we wanted something to wear straight away to hit the bars. Please tell me, we are not the only ones who have done this? So we got some bottles and then went back to hers to get ready and then we didn’t even leave the house!!! Hilarious, we just sat there drinking and chatting to her house mate. It was so perfect, with our favourite tunes in the background. So women, always go with the flow because now i have a spare sexy outfit ready for a cheeky night out. I feel this is going to be the norm whilst travelling, Woopsy!We need to get out more often. Be free.XOXOSamara
One of the safest places to be in the world is the stage – Frank Langella
Last week was so challenging for my colleagues and myself. I had to really try to not let unhappy people around me affect my own happy bubble. When doing a new project we always tend to find the faults in the good things we manage to complete and keep telling ourself that we aren’t good enough yet because we just want to do our best. We always want the best results straight away, especially as a performer i think our directors and creatives always expect to see the best of best results right away otherwise they can’t see their own work, that’s why it’s a little tricky for dancers as we have to make sure once we have learnt something, we then have to remember it and do it right away after being taught. I think our creatives do know it will take us time but most performers end up constantly trying to impress them instead of believing that their 100% is enough. Eventually we all tend to put ourselves down when we seem to just mess the little things up, which is natural. I feel we shouldn’t get so wound up about it because in the end the show will open and we will all be amazing, everything always falls into place if you have given your full commitment. When you know you are working hard enough and doing what you need to do best, then everything is going to be okay. So what if you get given notes or feedback, you need it! It will help you to be better. Try to look at how other amazing people around you work and try to take little things from them that you love and put it into your practice, we all learn from talented people, because these are the people who motivate us. I’m working with kids at the moment and their enthusiasm is insane, these kids are little ninjas and sometimes i think they can handle situation 10 times better than we do because they are happy with what they are doing. They are an inspiration to watch, they just go for it without any thinking or stress. Kids will always live in the moment.
I feel like all we need is an extra day of work to get some head space. Go and watch some theatre and tell me if you enjoyed it. Performers always tend to want to move and emotionally connect with out audiences and without an audience we don’t get to do what we do best. I watched ‘Five Guys Named Moe‘ last week with a few of my friends in it, and i just couldn’t stop singing, laughing and dancing all night, if you want a good night out with a couple of friends, this is the show to go for. I had two-day weekend for the first time and i watched ‘Harry Potter And The Cursed Child‘, it was insaneeee! The play takes you to another place you have never felt before; with constant awe and amazement; it was like I wasn’t watching a play but i was in fact watching a film live in action because it was so graphic. Please find some time and a friend to go watch this show, its indescribable. Harry Potter is a two-part show, so do expect a long but worth it day or you can just watch the first and second part different days. Your choice! So when you find that extra day off work, instead of doing those annoying house chores, get out and go and watch a show in the West end! I have to promote what i do because i don’t put in this much hard work in for no reason.
All about feeling cosy and making trips to the theatre, try the Monki new in collection!
Here’s some of my faves
Thank you for reading! I hope you book a show asap. Haha
My cinema trip this afternoon was so well deserved with some popcorn and a beautiful friend. I watched COCO and must i say, you have to go see it! It’s a Disney, fun, loving family movie and i would so recommend just taking some time out of your busy schedule to go see it. I know some of you are probably thinking, ‘why would i go and watch a Disney movie’, but i came out of the cinema so happy that i physically can’t describe to you how amazing that movie made me feel. When you watch this film, you will just start thinking about how amazing and important family is to you, even when they are not on your side or don’t agree with half of the decisions you make in life, deep down they will always love you. No matter what, family will always be there to listen. The movie touches on the topic of idolising. When you religiously admire other people’s lifestyle and you really believe that this could be the path for you aswell but ideally you may have a similar career but everyone has their own path and journey, you will never have what another has. We have our own amazing life, but we never see it. The person you are fantasising over isn’t generally happy or having the best life (they might be, but in their eyes, they want more aswell). It’s a vicious circle. How ever shit (excuse my language) you think your life is or however boring you think your life is, it is NOT, someone else you don’t know is admiring your lifestyle. Everyone has an amazing life and family around to support them and if you really don’t, there is always someone you can call upon to help you, but you are the only person who can make your life the life you want. Just enjoy every day you get to live
I was moved this week by a beautiful lady ‘Holly Butcher’, who posted an amazing message for the world to see before she passed away. She just put life right in front of my eyes and reminded me to enjoy every second loving and living the life i want. It is one of the most inspiring letters i have ever read. RIP XOXO
Here is the think to her post.
ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE
Train delays. You’ve been annoying.
TfL have been awful this week and the funny thing is, we can’t doing anything about it. We just have to accept that we will be late for work but i can always see the stress in everyone’s faces. Everyone who was on my tube is most likely to be late as-well, so technically we are never alone. I’m so happy I had 9 hours sleep some nights, also my body is dying from head to toe from the amazing routines I’ve learnt for the show this week. I always know when I can’t sit on the toilet seat with out holding on to something that i have worked hard. It’s been an intense week for me with rehearsals, I’ve been wearing my sports wear all week! Yesterday my anxiety was really high and when it is i always want to blame it on the contraceptive pill; that plays with our hormones; because we shouldn’t really be putting that into our bodies but we all do anyway, Ha! It’s so not good for our hormones (slight breakdown). I realised i just needed more food and more rest because my body needed fuel to keep me strong whilst working out more than it’s used to. So always remember that when you get emotional make sure you eat a massive meal, have some tea and sleep!!!! Please beauty queens, before you have a BREAKDOWN. Diva in the house.
I hate when i stress about little things in advance before the event has even happened or trying to work out a situation that isn’t even there. Why am i making up the worst scenario/Hollywood movie in my head, when nothing has even happened yet. I’m always planning on the worst stuff to happen. Why do i care so much, when nothing has even happened? I seem we all can tend to just make up situations in our head when that wasn’t exactly what happened, we over analyse every step and moment! I need to just leave it at where it is because in the end no one actually cares, only i do. Even my body, i was comparing myself to others all week, as most of us do as performers, we tend to always be looking for that ”dancer body’ or we assume we wont get hired for a job, that’s all rubbish! No one actually really cares about size, they just want to see our talent, but once we believe in ourself truly, they’re not even looking for that. Of course for performers it is casted our looks; that makes it harder for us; to make sure everyone looks good together as a company, but that’s not our issue to worry about and the next job will be round the corner.
Lets take a breath this weekend and forget our everything. Lets just live and eattttt!!!!
I ordered some moreeee clothes yesterday!!! Asos at its finest.
I’m so excited to get wearing these during my rehearsals, the snake-skin print leggings blend in with my skin tone and I’m soooo impressed with the quality of them. I’ve always loved a Bershka running leggings, I’ve had a pair for 2 year and they’ve lasted so long! The quality must be good to last as long as that! So excited to get dancing around in these. Who doesn’t love a print!?
Yes yes yes to black! If you don’t know what to wear, choose black! This is 100% a sexy number, if you are brave enough get this outfit on with some black skinny jeans. This outfit is for a night out to a date night with your loved one/friends. Always nice to change things up. I love a bell sleeve and an off shoulder!
Thank you for ready you crazy fun ladies!
I’ve got the mood lighting on and the ‘Calm Vibes’ playlist on from Spotify playing. I love Spotify, it just has every genre of music i love. Music cures my heart! I’m sure it cures yours as well, i would 100% recommend Spotify if you don’t have it already. After a long but short day at work (week 2), I’ve now manage to eat; do some extra work bits at home; and now its time to settle the mind. I think its important in the evenings to clear any bad or negative energies that passed your way. Remind yourself It’s not worth it focusing your energies on the wrong thing. Will you care 5 months later? eh NO! I forget sometimes a long bath or shower; as soon as you get in; with music and candles can really calm/wind you down for the rest evening. I’ve still got a lush bath bomb i got as a gift from a lovely friend this christmas to use, so i think its smart this weekend to try one out for the first time. They look amazing, but i do find that lush fragrances are a little too strong for me. I prefer a warm, soft, vanilla fresh and camomile fragrances. They do say taking a bath does pull you out of the world and gives you that personal space you always try to catch from our hectic lives. So try bathing more often, i do prefer showers but I’m going to try bathing more. Get those candles burning, they naturally represent life and if you actually watch a candle it shows you how simple life works and how calm we can just be. But still powerful to touch.
Thousand Of Candles Can Be Lighted From A Single Candle, And The Life Of The Candle Will Not Be Shortened. Happiness Never Decreases By Being Shared – Buddha
I love to read and i would always recommend people to find styles of books that suit them or would make them want to read more. I’ve just received this book from a friend called ‘How To Be Calm’ by Anna Barnes. It’s full of colourful, bright and warm pages that instantly make smile. The book is full of fun quotes and ideas about keeping yourself calm and letting go of your anxiety. Most of the ideas you probably know already, but a reminder is always helpful. Some of her suggestions relate to normal things we do in the day, but I didn’t really realise little things we naturally do can actually be so calming and relaxing. At times i like to read motivational books but i do find it gets my brain thinking too much when i want to wind down so this book is perfect. I love thriller and romance books as-well, i might pick up a fashion book next week actually! Switch it up.
Anna Barnes has a collection of beautiful quick mind reads, pick one up or purchase online when you have time.
Thank you for reading. My blog this evening is a little different, i’m going to be posting about things I’m doing from day to day, and documenting my year in 2018. I’m excited about sharing my life with you this year. Stay posted.
Last minute choices are the best. I love to book spontaneous and last minute trips with my love when we get the chance. After filling my belly up with an exciting food choice of steak for Christmas and spending time in germany with the second family we decided to book a Christmas trip to Amsterdam. We literally got home with a glass of wine and got online and booked train tickets and the hotel in half an hour. We had about 1 hour to pack for our 2 night trip away!! It was the best decision and I had the best time, we got on the train at 8pm and then 3 hours later we was there. Look how easy life can be. We got all dressed up and hit the town to dance off the Christmas food at my favourite live jazz club (Sugar Factory).
Any chance you have, try to save up a little cash or put some extra last travelling money aside and book that random crazy trip that you’ve always been thinking about. Grab someone fun and have the time of your life. Dance on the streets when you can and laugh all day. Dancing and laughing is a sign of healing. So get out there and be free, the feeling of freedom is the best feeling i have ever experienced. Maybe you are not a travelling person, but you never know until you try it. The feeling of last minute decisions is insane, but just go with the flow and let your mind be free
I watched The Helene Fischer show on Christmas Day in Amsterdam on ZDF, and i am was overwhelmed with how amazing hard work pays off. I am so privalidge that i had the chance to dance behind such a wonderful and strong women. If you have a spare minute, please check this video footage on YouTube of one of the numbers i did in the show starring Vanessa Mai: https://youtu.be/FKFwYq08FwE!
Top moment in 2017!
I packed my monki outfits that i showed you in my previous post, here’s me in the monki vinatge jumper and in cross eyelet jeans.
Be wild And Free!
Thank you for reading, Love Samara
When you get some time off work, do you also find it hard to relax? I’ve had 5 weeks off this Christmas (which I am thankful for). I’m currently in between jobs at the moment and I’m finding it very difficult to just chill and put my head back. Do you think it’s the little things we love doing, that make us feel “relaxed”?
Relaxed = Free from tension and anxiety
I did take up an intensive 7 day job dancing for Helene Fischer (one of the biggest pop stars in Germany), for her Christmas show, going live on the 25th of December on Channel ZDF. The job wasn’t relaxing but it was a fun experience and I was challenged in a style of dancing I haven’t done in years. I’ve done a lot more cooking than I have been doing this year, which I funnily enough find relaxing, especially with some music in the background. Then I found I got anxiety from doing nothing all day, it’s mad! In that tiny mind of mine I wasn’t relaxed, my mind was so use to thinking a million things at once. The feeling of sitting around wasn’t enough for my head. I don’t think I’m the only one who loves to be proactive, maybe the idea of doing house chores without rushing about is also relaxing. This week I’ve still managed to somehow to get myself into a little routine as in; getting up to make breakfast then relaxing and watching some christmas movies, I would then write some ideas for my blog, then I would slowly get up and do some yoga and maybe a strengthening video after with some dancing stretches to keep supple for my next job, finally I get out and wander around. You get the idea!
I’m currently in German this Christmas season. I’m spending quality time with my love, which I can’t moan about! Sometimes we don’t get time to see the people we love enough, so doing what ever we can in our spare time to see our loved ones is alway nice. It’s actually a really nice feeling. Not everyone has enough holidays and free time, so its trying to find the right balance to get your mind into that relaxing state. Germany is sooooo chilled and beautiful, so I shouldn’t complain about having nothing to do, but I did live here for a year and a half, so I know my way about. I do feel at home in Germany and I do love my local coffee shops which get me out. It’s perfect for me to write in different environments as It gets my brain waving and thinking about other things. For me getting some oxygen and fresh air gives me that amazing feeling too, if I don’t get out for at least an hour a day I don’t feel content, I feel agitated. It’s such a weird feeling and maybe I’m not alone with this.
I find doing exercises in my spare time also relaxing and it burns enough energy for me to actually relax my body. I feel like I should of tried to meditate at least 3 times a week and channel my focuses on all the amazing stuff that has gone on over the past year and accept all the amazing things to come. I don’t really walk around in parks in the winter, maybe I should grab my partner and go for a walk this christmas, and just enjoy the local amazing German parks in the winter. I do love a walk in a park but mostly in the summer. I did it for a whole year when I was living in Germany. OMGOSH, I forget my daily commute and how beautiful nature was to pass by. I took that for granted in London, I defiantly didn’t have any amazing parks on my commute to work, I had the underground. Now talking about London, I do feel very relaxed here on my break in Germany and I’m so happy I found the time open up my personal blogging website, it was the best idea this Christmas break and I am thankful.
What are you thankful for today?
Samara’s Monki Haul Christmas Online Shop
I’ve been a huge fan of Monki for years, and this year I feel like I have abandoned the brand. So I had a little browse this week and got some early sale items.
I’ve always wanted these eyelet detail jeans, the material is so thick. This vintage colour can never go wrong, I can put any type of top or jumper on with it. I love the lace on the side, it’s so this season!
I’m Obessed with pink, I use to have this obsession with pink clothes and jumpers, so I’ve added a new one now. Again sticking to that vintage style, loose fit. Pure SASS.
Tapered silk, high waisted with a loose fit. WOW, all my items today seem to be in a vinatge style.I only seem to wear high-waisted, I can’t deal with low waist jeans/trousers, as it just doesn’t suit my body. It’s always good to know what clothes suit your shape.
Shiny classic top to go with all my snazzy pants and jeans, I’m going to wear this top on Christmas Day I think. It’s so cozy and snug, stretchy material! Perfect, because I will be eating everything the next few days!
I hope you loved my discussion today, and my clothes haul!! Thank you for reading.