Just Keep Swimming, You Are On The Right Track

SHE’S BACK!!!!!!


This throw over sheer kimono is from BOOHOO, I have it in white aswell. But I could literally wear this with all my outfits. All seasons round item; I would say this kimono is one of my faves.

It’s been nearly a year since I’ve written anything. So many things can happen in a year or even a couple of months. Time tends to fly by and we get slapped in the face and wrapped up in our own little bubble with the existence we call ‘Life’. We are learning and evolving every day. Have you ever thought you was happy in a relationship, when actually you wasn’t the whole time? I mean I think we do see the red flags at the beginning stages of meeting/dating someone. We just tend to ignore them and give them all the chance. We all love chances, but as a dear friend of mine would say…

Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice shame on me.

I LOVE IT ! Please lovely ladies, don’t ignore your sadness and don’t allow someone to make you feel like you are crazy or tell you that you are sad because of other reasons; stand your ground and find the root of what is making you feel that certain way and speak up! Be heard girlfriend. We can fall in love with a controlling selfish lover or with someone who just doesn’t want to hear your voice. Don’t just settle for anything and know your worth. I always have a gut feeling but I never go with it, I will do now, trust me haha! I’m starting to learn that I’ve always knew what was right for me, but I lacked in power and lost my strength to speak up. It will take time to find your full power or maybe you have that strength already, if so, make sure every decision you make is for you and you know that it will bring long term happiness.


This outfit is PRETTY LITTLE THING. This is a Co-ord; skirt and blouse. I do love the print but the skirt is quite thin material so if I re-wear the skirt in the winter I will have to put some tights on or over the knee boots with it. The blouse you can wear all seasons round, especially in winter with a pair of  jeans but I’ve just tied it in a knot for a this summer look. P.s I was in Marrakech two weeks ago.

I went through my first break up (I’m sure you’ve all been there before). I feel like everyone should experience heart break because it really has strengthened me in all aspects in my life. I now will always speak my mind and make sure I am doing what I want to do. I was with an emotionally abusive partner and I was unintentionally or intentionally put down and made to feel I had no say in my relationship. I was ignored and ignored for 2 years and a half, and i only realised I was until I left the the relationship. HOW!? How was I so blind? I guess we can be blinded by love; unhealthy love can just really leave some bruises on our hearts. I became addictively co-dependent and I never thought I would have due to my strong independence before my relationship; I guess this is where we learn our lessons. The process of breaking up was not fun but I can admit I now feel free. I wouldn’t say I hate or despise my ex because I’ve learnt everything I need to know for myself and I now know how to keep strong and keep my power and self worth. No one should gain the power to bring you down unless you hand it to them. So we cant blame anyone else but ourselves.


If you haven’t watched Finding Nemo and feel like you can be a child for a couple of hours, go and watch Finding Nemo.


Crystals, New People and Spontaneous Shopping Trips

I’ve been trying to find a lot of me time recently and it hasn’t been the easiest when I’ve been at work everyday for 9 hours, 6 days a week. I feel slightly suffocated when I’m around the same people 24/7, it can be hard to be patient with different people, as we are all trying to get to know each other still. I am only 2 months in to my contract and it’s been hard to let people in bit by bit when i know i have to spend the next 18 months with them. It’s always natural to make a closer bond with a couple of people, as its human. I think it’s important to stick to those natural connections and surround yourself with those people who you feel closer with because they will keep you smiling. I also think it’s important to keep that effort with the rest of your employees because it is polite and it should really not affect your own energy.

I learnt that I need to make sure i do a couple of things a week that keep me in track with myself, even if its spread out during the week and i go for that coffee date or cinema trip to just forget about work and zone out. I realised I really neeeed this! We all need to just find that calm in all of the drama in our crazy life. Ah, i read about our every day shower can be therapeutic, as in we rush and make getting ready just a casual routine and it’s always rushed for us to get out of the house. But if you really try to make sure you make enough time to enjoy your shower and get ready, with some music in the background, feeling the water against your skin. Showering should be therapeutic, make it part of the day where you just you can’t wait to shower or bathe. Make it a breather for you to wake yourself up or to wind you down after a long day. Showering should be one of your favourite times of the day!

img_1006I bought a rose quartz crystal and a dream catcher last week sunday. The rose quartz represents unconditional love and self-love, so I’m trying to really work on self-love this year by just really appreciating who i am and realising that i am beautiful and sexy. I mean I found it very strange to even write that down. So, women there is always a start, get that pen and paper and write it down. See how you feel, say it aloud and see how you feel. We have to work on actually feeling it without becoming arrogant, but single ladies once you embrace that beauty you will find your match. Surprisingly, it all goes down hill again when you get into relationships because you want to just impress your partner naturally and be that sexy lady, but that is all just your natural thoughts going crazy. Just stay calm because your man is with you because you are sexy and beautiful, embrace it.

I was browsing around the shops with my friend and decided to just buy clothes to go out that night; this is not the first time I’ve just bought clothes there and then and changed in the changing rooms for the night. I mean we wasn’t dressed indecent, but we just wanted something to wear straight away to hit the bars. Please tell me, we are not the only ones who have done this? So we got some bottles and then went back to hers to get ready and then we didn’t even leave the house!!! Hilarious, we just sat there drinking and chatting to her house mate. It was so perfect, with our favourite tunes in the background. So women, always go with the flow because now i have a spare sexy outfit ready for a cheeky night out. I feel this is going to be the norm whilst travelling. Woopsy!

We need to get out more often. Be free.


Welcome 2018, Lets Be Patient


Did You Make A New Year Wish?

So why did i think it was sensible to take a shot of spirit on New Year’s Day that contained 70%  pure alcohol. Hahaha i have to laugh it off. I really want to make sure i post everyday. Lets all try and stick to something we put our minds too.

I was sitting in cologne airport and my flight was 1 hour and a half delayed on the 1st of December, as per with Ryan air. Everyday delays. This year I entered the year with out my family, but the warm welcome into the year with my partners family (my German family) it was so beautiful. Fireworks everywhere on the streets. Ive already made some really strong decisions today, and I’m feeling so content with everything. Life is so easy and simple. Lets not complicate the life we live. I can’t have everything i want at this time in moment but its okay, last year taught me a lot of lessons and now I’m here to put all those challenges to play. I start my new job tomorrow and reading the schedule for my rehearsals has got me feeling so appreciative of all my hard work. Every year I make new goals, and I’ve manage to accomplish every one. My one and only dream is to live with my man in germany and start a life. It’s simple, but yet not so simple, but i’m planning on just taking the risk and doing what i want for myself to make me happy.


Day one of rehearsals today, working for the royal Shakespeare’s company. It was a crazy but not too manic day, i’m super tired due to not getting much sleep. I was constantly rolling over thinking about my love and about starting this new journey. I’m going to have to meditate tonight to relax myself before i sleep, actually writing this blog is whining me right down. I’ve just gone over all the music we learnt today and it was so overwhelming, ahhh! There was so much information in one day that I literally can not think right now. I need water!! To keep that face fresh you have to drink so much water! You will surprised with how much drinking water makes your skin look fresh! My skin is awful at the moment from drinking way too much alcohol over the Christmas period, but I’ll say i had the best holiday break.

I reminded myself about staying patient today, it’s so important to stay calm and not to pull yourself down because you can’t get something right away. The only person rushing and forcing yourself is only yourself. It’s nice that you are so passionate but you shouldn’t put yourself down when you have only just mastered something, practice makes perfect and there is always time.

A few new in items i loved this week.

I’m not feeling sale hunting, i look for what i love and if its on sale then I’m happy and if not, then i still think it’s worth buying something if you know you will wear it all the time.

Miss Selfridge grey bobble sleeve jump £31, just a causal added cute textured cosy jumper to wear all the time. I mean all the time.

Topshop jacquard bed jacket £32, this is different and not usually what i would wear; how do i not know if i don’t try on,eh; but i have a similar blouse from monki, but i love this colour and they have it in pink!

I love this Topshop whipstitch ‘love’ slogan jumper £39, something about this just i just love, especially with the added ‘love’ slogan on the sleeve is so cool and original.

Topshop sued country skirt £95, its real suede and can we risk it, i think so many of you beautiful women would look hot in this. It is short indeed but maybe for a night out or a romantic date. Change it up and get those legs out!

Good Night all or good day or good afternoon!

Keep shining its 2018



Lets Live 2018

Is it just me or do you all who write blogs or love reading blogs, love drinking tea whilst doing so? Maybe wine.


Bringing new-ness into 2018. I really want to try/do new things in my spare time. I want to keep my energies running free with all the amazing things there are in life. I think going on tour next year will give me the opportunity to change things up and go with the flow. I want to be able to make sure i tell myself everyday that i am capable of all the tasks i take on, and i think you sexy women are too. We can do this, we can make next year the best year we want it to be. I know everyone says, “why does it take New Years for people to change their ways”, no, we will continue to be the amazing women we are but we are going to add extra amazing assets to our life and personality. I just want to smileeeeeee everyday! Which is impossible. Nothing is impossible, but life is not easy. If life was easy, we will have everything we needed and be lazy as hell!

Make sure you bring that full you into 2018, lets not hold back on thoughts and feelings. Let embrace every situation and be in control of how we react to these situations. Staying calm when you think a storm is about to blow. When you stay calm in stressful situations, you win! Be in control of yourself, there is actually no reason why we should not. No one can control us, right!

Shall we try and be nicer to the people around us and start giving off nice gestures as much as possible. It doesn’t just bring positivity to you but it makes you a stronger/beautiful women. Lets just be excited about the amazing person that we are all going to be next year! Lets dress up everyday and show them how we run our own catwalk, we have our own runway and we are going to run that walk. Yes yes yes! I’m feeling so inspired and i love that feeling. We don’t just have that simple career, simple love and simple family. We are not simple. Please try and travel as much as you can next year and do the biggest thing you’ve ever wanted to do, save up and do it!

Can we just eat, and live how we want to live. Lets not stress this year about how we look because i think this year really set me high on emotions from all those fake instagram post. It’s crazy, we don’t all have to look social media acceptable. It’s all rubbish. You in that mirror is acceptable. I’m going to eat and drink what i love, but in moderations. I’m going work out 3 times a week and chill the hell out! We can’t spend years of our life missing out on that cake we wanted! I’m currently laughing at my own joke. Laugh more.

We Like To Party !!

Lets smile, one more day left of 2017!

Samara XOXO

I’m Leaving You Behind In 2017!

5A30AC5C-352B-4FED-BF28-1152CD3F0FDD.pngA few things i’m going to be leaving behind in 2017 and starting my new year fresh.

I’m going to be getting rid of those toxic people. When you realise all your friends that want to be in your life are still in your life. We don’t need to keep everyone we have met this year along with us to 2018, there is no need. Of course, if they message or call me i will be nice and catch up, but you know the people that bring you happiness and positivity, the people who make you smile and bring that amazing side out of you. I love the people who i feel 100% comfortable around, who you can be yourself around without feeling that you are being judge. We are not silly, we do know from our instinct and we should make sure we keep ourselves happy from within and when we are with the people we love, that is always possible. I hate when i feel negative energy from people, maybe its me, maybe they had a bad day, but i feel like i shouldn’t be treated unfairly when I’m bringing smiles and compliments their way. But they do not have to like me, i just hate being spoken/treated like rubbish.

Letting go of stressing about the future and things i can’t control. I love to stress about the next step, but really every time i have, there has be no need to. All the outcomes have been amazing. I admire those women i see who stay calm in crazy situations, and women who have that i don’t care attitude. I mean, i love the passionate and spiritual women out there but i need to find a calm way of dealing with things, find that “zen” spirit as they say. So next year I’m really going to focus on not stressing about the things I’m not in control of or the things that i cant change right this minute. I’m really not good at starting new things. I start my new job in January and I’m already having anxiety about leaving germany for the 100th time. Im going to be travelling around Europe for 18 months and I’m going to be leaving my love behind, its not easy. I stress about things that i just don’t know how its going to turn out; but i will never know until i start; like i did this year, but in the end i know i will have an amazing time!

One more thing I’m leaving behind this year is some of my clothes that i just need to get rid off. Before i start my tour I’m going to get rid of all the old clothes that i keep because i did like them and the clothes that i think i might need. To be honest, the clothes i haven’t touched the whole year, i doubt i’m going to wear it next year. I can’t bring my whole wardrobe with me, so I’m going to just bring all my favourite outfits and workout clothes and sadly leave the rest behind. It’s so hard packing for 18 months, but there is always shops and online shopping everywhere you go. I’m sure i’ll be fine. Less is better i say, the more i can buy!!

Here are some items I purchased on Asos last night!!

Vinyl coat and vinyl trousers, i just browsed through a few vinyl items and now i am obsessed, i love the look of vinly as it is so chic and vintage. Giving you that edge and high street look, yet you can totally dress it up with a glam dress or a pair of heels. It’s just soooo different.

Bringing in some bright and fun colours into my wardrobe with some beautiful textures. The Silk pink tracksuit flare pants are sooooooo cool, I’m obsessed with them already and i can’t wait to get wearing them. The beautiful yellow scarf dress is beautiful, i will be wearing this dress at all hours of the day, a casual shopping day out to getting some cocktails! Heels and trainers, are we bothered!

Well, I’m sure your going to keep some amazing things with you this year, and i will be posting about the stuff i will be keeping tomorrow. Thank you for reading. Stay glowing!

XOXO Samara