Crystals, New People and Spontaneous Shopping Trips

I’ve been trying find a lot of me time recently and it hasn’t been the easiest when you are at work 9 hours for 6 days a week. I feel slightly suffocated when i am around the same people 24/7, it can be hard to be patient with different people, as we are all trying to get to know each other still. I am only 2 months in and it is hard to let people in bit by bit when you have to spend the next 16 months together. It’s always natural to make a closer bond with a couple of people, as its human. I think it’s important to stick to those natural connections and surround yourself with those people who you feel closer with because they will keep you smiling. I also think it’s important to keep that effort with the rest of your employees because it is polite and it should really not affect your own energy.

I learnt that i need to make sure i do a couple of things a week that keep me in track with myself, even if its spread out and i go for that coffee date or cinema trip to just forget about work and zone out. I realised i really neeeed this! We all do, just find that calm in all of the drama and crazy life. Ah, i read about actually relaxing in the shower, so we rush and make getting ready just a casual routine and it’s always rushed for us to get out of the house. Really try to make sure you make enough time to enjoy your shower and get ready, with some music in the background, feeling the water against your skin. Showering should be therapeutic, make it part of the day where you just you can’t wait to shower or bathe. Make it a breather for you to wake yourself up or to wind you down after a long day. Showering should be one of your favourite times of the day!

img_1006I bought a rose quartz crystal and a dream catcher last week sunday. The rose quartz represents unconditional love and self-love, so I’m trying to really work on self-love this year by just really appreciating who i am and realising that i am beautiful and sexy. I mean I found it very strange to even write that down. So, women there is always a start, get that pen and paper and write it down. See how you feel, say it aloud and see how you feel. We have to work on actually feeling it without becoming arrogant, but single ladies once you embrace that beauty you will find your match. Surprisingly it all goes down hill again when you get into relationships because you want to just impress your partner naturally and be that sexy lady, but that is all in your head. Your man is with you because you are sexy and beautiful, embrace it with your partner. Walk around him with a smile and shake that booty whilst you walk, he will always be happy if you are, End of!

I was browsing around the shops with my friend and decided to just buy clothes to go out that night; this is not the first time I’ve just bought clothes there and then and changed in the changing rooms for the night, we was in decent clothes but we wanted something to wear straight away to hit the bars. Please tell me, we are not the only ones who have done this? So we got some bottles and then went back to hers to get ready and then we didn’t even leave the house!!! Hilarious, we just sat there drinking and chatting to her house mate. It was so perfect, with our favourite tunes in the background. So women, always go with the flow because now i have a spare sexy outfit ready for a cheeky night out. I feel like when travelling this is going to be a regular thing, Woopsy!

We need to get out more often. Be free.



Don’t Let Others Defeat You

No one can defeat you or me!!

Being free and going with your natural instincts is so beautiful to feel. No one knows you as much as you know yourself. If someone doesn’t understand you, they still need to respect you, and the same as to you as-well, if you don’t understand someone’s ways, you should still respect that person. Everyone has their own story, but I will never agree with someone purposely disrespecting or talking down to someone. It’s not on! I would love for you all to speak up and voice your opinion at some point, so if you see someone within your workspace being treated unequally, please speak up or take note. Yes, Make sure you haven’t been the person who is victimising others. I know we’re not all perfect, but being happy and confident is perfect in my eyes.

Let’s give compliments and lift each other. We are always told we are not doing things right, but I think some people may forget to notice or compliment the great things you have achieved. Who says you can’t give yourself compliments, it’s better from your inner self then a stranger, Let’s be honest.

Love and kisses. It’s been a hard week but inspirational week.




My cinema trip this afternoon was so well deserved with some popcorn and a beautiful friend. I watched COCO and must i say, you have to go see it! It’s a Disney, fun, loving family movie and i would so recommend just taking some time out of your busy schedule to go see it. I know some of you are probably thinking, ‘why would i go and watch a Disney movie’, but i came out of the cinema so happy that i physically can’t describe to you how amazing that movie made me feel. When you watch this film, you will just start thinking about how amazing and important family is to you, even when they are not on your side or don’t agree with half of the decisions you make in life, deep down they will always love you. No matter what, family will always be there to listen. The movie touches on the topic of idolising. When you religiously admire other people’s lifestyle and you really believe that this could be the path for you aswell but ideally you may have a similar career but everyone has their own path and journey, you will never have what another has. We have our own amazing life, but we never see it. The person you are fantasising over isn’t generally happy or having the best life (they might be, but in their eyes, they want more aswell). It’s a vicious circle. How ever shit (excuse my language) you think your life is or however boring you think your life is, it is NOT, someone else you don’t know is admiring your lifestyle. Everyone has an amazing life and family around to support them and if you really don’t, there is always someone you can call upon to help you, but you are the only person who can make your life the life you want. Just enjoy every day you get to live

I was moved this week by a beautiful lady ‘Holly Butcher’, who posted an amazing message for the world to see before she passed away. She just put life right in front of my eyes and reminded me to enjoy every second loving and living the life i want. It is one of the most inspiring letters i have ever read. RIP XOXO

Here is the think to her post.

Holly Butcher



Day To Day Thinking


Train delays. You’ve been annoying.

TfL have been awful this week and the funny thing is, we can’t doing anything about it. We just have to accept that we will be late for work but i can always see the stress in everyone’s faces. Everyone who was on my tube is most likely to be late as-well, so technically we are never alone. I’m so happy I had 9 hours sleep some nights, also my body is dying from head to toe from the amazing routines I’ve learnt for the show this week. I always know when I can’t sit on the toilet seat with out holding on to something that i have worked hard. It’s been an intense week for me with rehearsals, I’ve been wearing my sports wear all week! Yesterday my anxiety was really high and when it is i always want to blame it on the contraceptive pill; that plays with our hormones; because we shouldn’t really be putting that into our bodies but we all do anyway, Ha! It’s so not good for our hormones (slight breakdown). I realised i just needed more food and more rest because my body needed fuel to keep me strong whilst working out more than it’s used to. So always remember that when you get emotional make sure you eat a massive meal, have some tea and sleep!!!! Please beauty queens, before you have a BREAKDOWN. Diva in the house.

I hate when i stress about little things in advance before the event has even happened or trying to work out a situation that isn’t even there. Why am i making up the worst scenario/Hollywood movie in my head, when nothing has even happened yet. I’m always planning on the worst stuff to happen. Why do i care so much, when nothing has even happened? I seem we all can tend to just make up situations in our head when that wasn’t exactly what happened, we over analyse every step and moment! I need to just leave it at where it is because in the end no one actually cares, only i do. Even my body, i was comparing myself to others all week, as most of us do as performers, we tend to always be looking for that ”dancer body’ or we assume we wont get hired for a job, that’s all rubbish! No one actually really cares about size, they just want to see our talent, but once we believe in ourself truly, they’re not even looking for that. Of course for performers it is casted our looks; that makes it harder for us; to make sure everyone looks good together as a company, but that’s not our issue to worry about and the next job will be round the corner.

Lets take a breath this weekend and forget our everything. Lets just live and eattttt!!!!

I ordered some moreeee clothes yesterday!!! Asos at its finest.

I’m so excited to get wearing these during my rehearsals, the snake-skin print leggings blend in with my skin tone and I’m soooo impressed with the quality of them. I’ve always loved a Bershka running leggings, I’ve had a pair for 2 year and they’ve lasted so long! The quality must be good to last as long as that! So excited to get dancing around in these. Who doesn’t love a print!?

Yes yes yes to black! If you don’t know what to wear, choose black! This is 100% a sexy number, if you are brave enough get this outfit on with some black skinny jeans. This outfit is for a night out to a date night with your loved one/friends. Always nice to change things up. I love a bell sleeve and an off shoulder!

Thank you for ready you crazy fun ladies!



Peaceful Evenings Are Amazing And Always Should Be


I’ve got the mood lighting on and the ‘Calm Vibes’ playlist on from Spotify playing. I love Spotify, it just has every genre of music i love. Music cures my heart! I’m sure it cures yours as well, i would 100% recommend Spotify if you don’t have it already. After a long but short day at work (week 2), I’ve now manage to eat; do some extra work bits at home; and now its time to settle the mind. I think its important in the evenings to clear any bad or negative energies that passed your way. Remind yourself It’s not worth it focusing your energies on the wrong thing. Will you care 5 months later? eh NO! I forget sometimes a long bath or shower; as soon as you get in; with music and candles can really calm/wind you down for the rest evening. I’ve still got a lush bath bomb i got as a gift from a lovely friend this christmas to use, so i think its smart this weekend to try one out for the first time. They look amazing, but i do find that lush fragrances are a little too strong for me. I prefer a warm, soft, vanilla fresh and camomile fragrances. They do say taking a bath does pull you out of the world and gives you that personal space you always try to catch from our hectic lives. So try bathing more often, i do prefer showers but I’m going to try bathing more. Get those candles burning, they naturally represent life and if you actually watch a candle it shows you how simple life works and how calm we can just be. But still powerful to touch.


Thousand Of Candles Can Be Lighted From A Single Candle, And The Life Of The Candle Will Not Be Shortened. Happiness Never Decreases By Being Shared – Buddha


img_0131I love to read and i would always recommend people to find styles of books that suit them or would make them want to read more. I’ve just received this book from a friend called ‘How To Be Calm’ by Anna Barnes. It’s full of colourful, bright and warm pages that instantly make smile. The book is full of fun quotes and ideas about keeping yourself calm and letting go of your anxiety. Most of the ideas you probably know already, but a reminder is always helpful. Some of her suggestions relate to normal things we do in the day, but I didn’t really realise little things we naturally do can actually be so calming and relaxing. At times i like to read motivational books but i do find it gets my brain thinking too much when i want to wind down so this book is perfect. I love thriller and romance books as-well, i might pick up a fashion book next week actually! Switch it up.

Anna Barnes has a collection of beautiful quick mind reads, pick one up or purchase online when you have time.



Thank you for reading. My blog this evening is a little different, i’m going to be posting about things I’m doing from day to day, and documenting my year in 2018.  I’m excited about sharing my life with you this year. Stay posted.





We all have times when we get really busy and we get a sudden rush of having to do a million of things at the same time. If you spread your work out; breath and take your time with everything; you will most likely get more things done than rushing, panicking and trying to get it done all at once. Really try to chill out and relax when you have a lot on your plate. One step at a time. Trust me, i put that into practice today and most likely the whole tour because i have to cover two main roles in the musical I’m doing (Matilda). Find that calm state you think you don’t have, especially as women as we have so much hormones running through our bodies. We don’t want an easy life.

I love people watching, especially on the tube or at coffee shops. People are so interesting and they all have their own story and individual life going on, it’s mad. Everyone on their own journey. I find it so therapeutic wondering what’s going on in their tiny little brains. We all look like robots sometimes when we pace about from door to door and totally forget to take our time to breathe in that air that surround us. I think everyone naturally feels tired in the morning, but why moan and depress ourself when we can just embrace it for what it is and then try to rest in the evening. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I’m shattered but i got no where complaining and dwelling on it. So now, I’m really trying to find that relaxed state and just eating the right things when i feel this way. Even when i know i have some time to rest i think it will be wise to close my eyes for a couple of minutes and just be. Then your day off arrives and you can either start the day with your schedule and then get on that sofa and zone out for a bit. There is always time.


We always have to be somewhere at certain at a time. I would say just set your alarm early or find a way where you can chill and do what’s best for you before you have to reach your destination/work. Just find a calm before you have to start challenging that amazing brain of ours. If I have to get up early i’m going to really try waking up earlier to put some good things in my body instead of rushing out without any fuel and starting work on an empty. Lets try to build and create our own life we want to live, really trying to be in control what we do instead of the way of life forcing us to get into that boring routine where we just end up all in a terrible mess.

Deep post today. I just feel it’s really important to make yourself feel good, right?!

Here’s some new in ASOS items i loved today.

How do you feel about grey? I love the nude and subtle colours, AND BLACK! On the left we have the Bloch heels which always goes well with jeans or a dress, Bloch heels are just so much more comfy than thing heeled shoes. So if you are ready for a long night out than these are the shoes for you! Heels just slightly under the knee, i would dress these with blue jeans and the love slogan jumper from Topshop that i posted yesterday. Snazzy!!


This blue velvet jacket is such a beautiful colour. It worn at all times especially when it starts getting warmer, hopefully! I never wear long skirts but those long-legged stunning women out there please put them on. This hot-shot pink colour is everything!! Girl, you dying to pick up all the compliments wearing this.


Thank you for reading



Welcome 2018, Lets Be Patient


Did You Make A New Year Wish?

So why did i think it was sensible to take a shot of spirit on New Year’s Day that contained 70%  pure alcohol. Hahaha i have to laugh it off. I really want to make sure i post everyday. Lets all try and stick to something we put our minds too.

I was sitting in cologne airport and my flight was 1 hour and a half delayed on the 1st of December, as per with Ryan air. Everyday delays. This year I entered the year with out my family, but the warm welcome into the year with my partners family (my German family) it was so beautiful. Fireworks everywhere on the streets. Ive already made some really strong decisions today, and I’m feeling so content with everything. Life is so easy and simple. Lets not complicate the life we live. I can’t have everything i want at this time in moment but its okay, last year taught me a lot of lessons and now I’m here to put all those challenges to play. I start my new job tomorrow and reading the schedule for my rehearsals has got me feeling so appreciative of all my hard work. Every year I make new goals, and I’ve manage to accomplish every one. My one and only dream is to live with my man in germany and start a life. It’s simple, but yet not so simple, but i’m planning on just taking the risk and doing what i want for myself to make me happy.


Day one of rehearsals today, working for the royal Shakespeare’s company. It was a crazy but not too manic day, i’m super tired due to not getting much sleep. I was constantly rolling over thinking about my love and about starting this new journey. I’m going to have to meditate tonight to relax myself before i sleep, actually writing this blog is whining me right down. I’ve just gone over all the music we learnt today and it was so overwhelming, ahhh! There was so much information in one day that I literally can not think right now. I need water!! To keep that face fresh you have to drink so much water! You will surprised with how much drinking water makes your skin look fresh! My skin is awful at the moment from drinking way too much alcohol over the Christmas period, but I’ll say i had the best holiday break.

I reminded myself about staying patient today, it’s so important to stay calm and not to pull yourself down because you can’t get something right away. The only person rushing and forcing yourself is only yourself. It’s nice that you are so passionate but you shouldn’t put yourself down when you have only just mastered something, practice makes perfect and there is always time.

A few new in items i loved this week.

I’m not feeling sale hunting, i look for what i love and if its on sale then I’m happy and if not, then i still think it’s worth buying something if you know you will wear it all the time.

Miss Selfridge grey bobble sleeve jump £31, just a causal added cute textured cosy jumper to wear all the time. I mean all the time.

Topshop jacquard bed jacket £32, this is different and not usually what i would wear; how do i not know if i don’t try on,eh; but i have a similar blouse from monki, but i love this colour and they have it in pink!

I love this Topshop whipstitch ‘love’ slogan jumper £39, something about this just i just love, especially with the added ‘love’ slogan on the sleeve is so cool and original.

Topshop sued country skirt £95, its real suede and can we risk it, i think so many of you beautiful women would look hot in this. It is short indeed but maybe for a night out or a romantic date. Change it up and get those legs out!

Good Night all or good day or good afternoon!

Keep shining its 2018