Healing is scary but such a beautiful process. Let’s talk about it more.
Healing love, healing trauma, healing negativity from the past.
You are not alone.
Healing is scary but such a beautiful process. Let’s talk about it more.
Healing love, healing trauma, healing negativity from the past.
You are not alone.
Take some time out today and meditate, ask for what you want and know everything will come to you with time and patience.
Found on ASOS new in.
These culottes are so cute, I’ve got long legs so I feel they would only look really good with heels on because I hate my legs being cut off by midi clothed items. All you beautiful women can rock these with trainers and heels. These culottes are soooooo cute, retro and fashionable! Darling, for £25, how could you go wrong.
So, I always have a pair of patent boots and I usually get mine from top shop or river island but I’m not going to lie they always end up breaking because I wear heel boots religiously. These ones are not too pricey and you wont feel as bad if they don’t last you a lifetime. If you are not a fan of patent, you can get some identical ones in leather from Zara and most high street stores.
I love these trainers. I haven’t purchased them yet but they come in black and white with a two-tone clash sole. They are so cool, (I’m so in love with them, can you tell?). I think I’m going to wait until after Christmas to get them because I’m loving boots in this cold weather at the moment. Puma you rock!
Are you a adidas, puma or nike sort of person?
I’m always in a earring, with out doubt everyday single day I wear an earring. Even if I’m just going to work to then take them off straight away haha. I would say I’m definitely an jewellery fanatic; to the point where if I left the house with no earrings on I would feel so bare. Back to these earrings, the pink diamond jewel is so pretty complimenting the white diamonds. Subtle as I would say but showy. I would match these up with a white blouse tucked into a jean and a classic blazer.
Okay now, this is very bold and brave look; i guess its not everyone’s cup of tea but it’s definitely something I would recommend for this festive season. Honey, you could wear this with a classic black tee with jeans or leggings; just whack this kimono over the top! You will get all the compliments. Don’t we just love sequins. I dare you, go and purchase a sequin this winter if you haven’t already! The green at the bottom is so festive; can it be Christmas already hahah.
See now, this is not particularly my style; actually if I did pick this up to buy and it fitted well I would 100% wear this. I don’t really wear green to be honest but if you do this beautiful vintage themed styled dress is so beautiful! I can imagine it on so many beautiful women. Who wants me to buy it and get a picture up in it? Let me know by clicking the comment section and commenting YES.
Last but not least, this cosy lounge wear set; which you could definitely wear as pjs, look so cosy and snuggly. Imagine sitting by the fire at home with a glass of wine or hot chocolate, life couldn’t get any better right!
Love you all
XOXO SAMARA XOXO
This throw over sheer kimono is from BOOHOO, I have it in white aswell. But I could literally wear this with all my outfits. All seasons round item; I would say this kimono is one of my faves.
It’s been nearly a year since I’ve written anything. So many things can happen in a year or even a couple of months. Time tends to fly by and we get slapped in the face and wrapped up in our own little bubble with the existence we call ‘Life’. We are learning and evolving every day. Have you ever thought you was happy in a relationship, when actually you wasn’t the whole time? I mean I think we do see the red flags at the beginning stages of meeting/dating someone. We just tend to ignore them and give them all the chance. We all love chances, but as a dear friend of mine would say…
Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice shame on me.
I LOVE IT ! Please lovely ladies, don’t ignore your sadness and don’t allow someone to make you feel like you are crazy or tell you that you are sad because of other reasons; stand your ground and find the root of what is making you feel that certain way and speak up! Be heard girlfriend. We can fall in love with a controlling selfish lover or with someone who just doesn’t want to hear your voice. Don’t just settle for anything and know your worth. I always have a gut feeling but I never go with it, I will do now, trust me haha! I’m starting to learn that I’ve always knew what was right for me, but I lacked in power and lost my strength to speak up. It will take time to find your full power or maybe you have that strength already, if so, make sure every decision you make is for you and you know that it will bring long term happiness.
This outfit is PRETTY LITTLE THING. This is a Co-ord; skirt and blouse. I do love the print but the skirt is quite thin material so if I re-wear the skirt in the winter I will have to put some tights on or over the knee boots with it. The blouse you can wear all seasons round, especially in winter with a pair of jeans but I’ve just tied it in a knot for a this summer look. P.s I was in Marrakech two weeks ago.
I went through my first break up (I’m sure you’ve all been there before). I feel like everyone should experience heart break because it really has strengthened me in all aspects in my life. I now will always speak my mind and make sure I am doing what I want to do. I was with an emotionally abusive partner and I was unintentionally or intentionally put down and made to feel I had no say in my relationship. I was ignored and ignored for 2 years and a half, and i only realised I was until I left the the relationship. HOW!? How was I so blind? I guess we can be blinded by love; unhealthy love can just really leave some bruises on our hearts. I became addictively co-dependent and I never thought I would have due to my strong independence before my relationship; I guess this is where we learn our lessons. The process of breaking up was not fun but I can admit I now feel free. I wouldn’t say I hate or despise my ex because I’ve learnt everything I need to know for myself and I now know how to keep strong and keep my power and self worth. No one should gain the power to bring you down unless you hand it to them. So we cant blame anyone else but ourselves.
WHEN LIFE GETS YOU DOWN, DO YOU WNNA KNOW WHAT YOU’VE GOTTA DO? JUST KEEP SWIMMING! – Dory (Finding Nemo)
If you haven’t watched Finding Nemo and feel like you can be a child for a couple of hours, go and watch Finding Nemo.
XOXO SAMARA XOXO
Be Who You Want To Be
I’ve been trying to find a lot of me time recently and it hasn’t been the easiest when I’ve been at work everyday for 9 hours, 6 days a week. I feel slightly suffocated when I’m around the same people 24/7, it can be hard to be patient with different people, as we are all trying to get to know each other still. I am only 2 months in to my contract and it’s been hard to let people in bit by bit when i know i have to spend the next 18 months with them. It’s always natural to make a closer bond with a couple of people, as its human. I think it’s important to stick to those natural connections and surround yourself with those people who you feel closer with because they will keep you smiling. I also think it’s important to keep that effort with the rest of your employees because it is polite and it should really not affect your own energy.
I learnt that I need to make sure i do a couple of things a week that keep me in track with myself, even if its spread out during the week and i go for that coffee date or cinema trip to just forget about work and zone out. I realised I really neeeed this! We all need to just find that calm in all of the drama in our crazy life. Ah, i read about our every day shower can be therapeutic, as in we rush and make getting ready just a casual routine and it’s always rushed for us to get out of the house. But if you really try to make sure you make enough time to enjoy your shower and get ready, with some music in the background, feeling the water against your skin. Showering should be therapeutic, make it part of the day where you just you can’t wait to shower or bathe. Make it a breather for you to wake yourself up or to wind you down after a long day. Showering should be one of your favourite times of the day!
I bought a rose quartz crystal and a dream catcher last week sunday. The rose quartz represents unconditional love and self-love, so I’m trying to really work on self-love this year by just really appreciating who i am and realising that i am beautiful and sexy. I mean I found it very strange to even write that down. So, women there is always a start, get that pen and paper and write it down. See how you feel, say it aloud and see how you feel. We have to work on actually feeling it without becoming arrogant, but single ladies once you embrace that beauty you will find your match. Surprisingly, it all goes down hill again when you get into relationships because you want to just impress your partner naturally and be that sexy lady, but that is all just your natural thoughts going crazy. Just stay calm because your man is with you because you are sexy and beautiful, embrace it.
I was browsing around the shops with my friend and decided to just buy clothes to go out that night; this is not the first time I’ve just bought clothes there and then and changed in the changing rooms for the night. I mean we wasn’t dressed indecent, but we just wanted something to wear straight away to hit the bars. Please tell me, we are not the only ones who have done this? So we got some bottles and then went back to hers to get ready and then we didn’t even leave the house!!! Hilarious, we just sat there drinking and chatting to her house mate. It was so perfect, with our favourite tunes in the background. So women, always go with the flow because now i have a spare sexy outfit ready for a cheeky night out. I feel this is going to be the norm whilst travelling. Woopsy!
We need to get out more often. Be free.
XOXO Samara XOXO
Never rush an emotion; everything in life has a rhythm, it is the pauses and silences that speak the truth. – MICHAEL JACKSON
When you travel to new cities, what’s the first things you want to do?
I’ve signed up to the ‘The Gym’ which is located all over the UK, so i can go in every city i visit on tour. I’ve already had a lovely stroll around Leicester main city to see what’s around. I’ve looked at a few a cafe’s that offer gluten-free treats, so i can leave my digs (house/apartments you share or live in for a few weeks) and write my blog in different cafe’s. I just love writing in cafe‘s, I suppose! I am usually in theatres all day for tech, for at least 9-10 hours but only for 4 weeks, so i am spending a huge amount of time indoors so its nice to get out and be somewhere different. I love a nice walk to catch some fresh air, so i am enjoying my 20 minute walk to work and back. Some nights I’ve been naughty this week and I’ve been getting taxis back because we popped to the bar after work to relax. I would so recommend a 20 minute daily walk to get some vitamins from the sun, it also keeps your mind at peace. Ever since I’ve started walking to work i do feel a massive difference in the morning. It’s been a very long week for me, it feels like I’ve been in Leicester for 5 weeks already, the days can feel very long indeed. I am currently finding it hard to have a day for myself whilst working especially when i have worked all day, so by the end of the week everything and all my emotions just smack me in the face all at once. I will now try to make a little morning routine and do something else apart from just work, so right now on a Sunday morning i am currently writing. I’ve been so bad the last few weeks, so i need to get into a schedule of publishing! Let me know your thoughts, if you have any ideas.
I am really trying to be decisive and make my own choices at the moment and its going to be a work in progress. I want to be able to know what i want and do what i want without the acknowledgement of others. I’m sure a lot of you have a similar issue at times, i just can’t work out a simple question to myself of what to do, ie. eat out or eat at home, but we generally do know. We just always justify why we shouldn’t and why we should. Let just make some strong decisions and choices this week, I’ll let you know if i managed to! Should i go for a roast today with my cast? EH YES! Should i get my nails done today while I have time? EH DUH! Should i spend more money on things I don’t need? Hahhaha! Yes? See, i told you it gets hard. Now, i am smiling to myself writing a blog that maybe no one reads today, but it makes me happy! So just do what ever you need to do to get a smile on that beautiful face.
Music is the soul of happiness and I’ve realised you really need to try to listen to different genres or just any good feeling song. Try listening to a few of your favourite songs in your lunch breaks or on your way to work, every day when I’m getting ready I’m always playing my favourite artist. Amy Winehouse is a goddess, her music just takes me to a place I didn’t knew even existed. Very dramatic Samara! But seriously i love Amy, with a little bit of Bruno Mars on the side and some old school 70s. Basically think of wedding songs, any song you would play at a wedding, get it on and have a dance around naked, Choose to be happy. Have a browse on Spotify if you have or find some cool playlists on YouTube and try make it part of your routine. Play some Michael Jackson, he is my ultimate favourite artist and always will be.
Have a beautiful day.
Love Samara XOXO
I start my tour life very soon and I’m so excited/very nervous to leave London again. I got use to having everyone around, accept from my love, so now i can make an excuse with going on tour, saying it is going to bring me one step closer to being and living with my man in the end. I’m excited to see as much of the UK/ Ireland as possible.
The cities I’ll be visiting on tour is
Starting my travels Leicester first, I’m got on the train yesterday afternoon, and then i had a tasty curry for one of our cast members birthday and then i was suppose to do a Tesco online shop (very lazy), but in the end i will do one tonight and hopefully pre cook and then start wake up and do a workout before work tomorrow morning. I have joined ‘The Gym’, which is a chain branch gym that is located. all over the UK. Lucky me. Lets keep fit. I mean, with rehearsals I’ve only been to the gym once. I feel heavy! It’s time to keep our bodies healthy so we can eat what we like.
Packing is the Bain of my life, i just want to bring my whole wardrobe. But i do forget that sometimes we can just buy clothes in certain cities and buy outfits for night outs. So I brought all my old night out outfits and i shall be wearing them as casual!!! Haha. The life i guess. I’ve packed all the rehearsal and cosy wear as possible. 1 big suitcase and one normal size suitcase. Large and medium. Does anyone else find it hard to pack? If someone says you are going away for 18 months, go pack a suitcase, i think you would slightly freak out too. It’s all about enjoying my experience and feeling great with keeping myself smiling.
I did say to myself i wont buy too much because i will be touring. Well, i lied to myself because I’ve purchased a few cute bits from Zara and Miss Selfridge.
These Zara items work so well together, we all love a black body that holds us in without any lumps and bumps going on. Then these beautiful pants which fit snug around the waist accentuating your beautiful hips and then they slowly flare at the bottom stopping by the ankle.
Again Zara coat and some snazzy heels. These heels are sooo comfy, i would 100% recommend buying for when you are out having some cute cocktails or on a silly date. I will now live in this coat on tour, i love it! I mean it’s not the warmest but that’s what layers are for i guess. On tour I can’t pack all my amazing fur coats, as they take up so much room. The fuss!
Miss Selfridge high-waisted bag style pants and H&M cross style cropped top. I wore this outfit out Saturday night and it was my last night out before i started my journeys. These pants fit tight on the lower part of my legs with a slight loose fit style added around the thighs, gathering at the waist. They are in the petite section, but i am 5’6 ahaha, so i felt very slim when i was wearing these pants. It’s supposed to be a loose fit but not on me, but i like it. I always find some cute buys in H&M, but people say it’s a hit and miss store. Oh well. I love it.
Guys, keep updated with my post and bear with me. I will make a regular schedule and totally stick to it. Ive been so busy and caught up in life recently in life so bear with. I think its a good thing that life has been keeping me on my toes.