Be Who You Want To Be
Be Who You Want To Be
Be Who You Want To Be
I’ve been trying find a lot of me time recently and it hasn’t been the easiest when I’ve been at work everyday for 9 hours, 6 days a week. I feel slightly suffocated when I’m around the same people 24/7, it can be hard to be patient with different people, as we are all trying to get to know each other still. I am only 2 months in to my contract and it’s been hard to let people in bit by bit when i know i have to spend the next 18 months with them. It’s always natural to make a closer bond with a couple of people, as its human. I think it’s important to stick to those natural connections and surround yourself with those people who you feel closer with because they will keep you smiling. I also think it’s important to keep that effort with the rest of your employees because it is polite and it should really not affect your own energy.
I learnt that i need to make sure i do a couple of things a week that keep me in track with myself, even if its spread out during the week and i go for that coffee date or cinema trip to just forget about work and zone out. I realised i really neeeed this! We all need to just find that calm in all of the drama in our crazy life. Ah, i read about our every day shower can be therapeutic, as in we rush and make getting ready just a casual routine and it’s always rushed for us to get out of the house. But if you really try to make sure you make enough time to enjoy your shower and get ready, with some music in the background, feeling the water against your skin. Showering should be therapeutic, make it part of the day where you just you can’t wait to shower or bathe. Make it a breather for you to wake yourself up or to wind you down after a long day. Showering should be one of your favourite times of the day!
I bought a rose quartz crystal and a dream catcher last week sunday. The rose quartz represents unconditional love and self-love, so I’m trying to really work on self-love this year by just really appreciating who i am and realising that i am beautiful and sexy. I mean I found it very strange to even write that down. So, women there is always a start, get that pen and paper and write it down. See how you feel, say it aloud and see how you feel. We have to work on actually feeling it without becoming arrogant, but single ladies once you embrace that beauty you will find your match. Surprisingly it all goes down hill again when you get into relationships because you want to just impress your partner naturally and be that sexy lady, but that is all just your natural thoughts starting going crazy. Just stay calm because your man is with you because you are sexy and beautiful, embrace it with your partner. Walk around him with a smile and shake that booty whilst you walk, he will always be happy if you are, End of!
I was browsing around the shops with my friend and decided to just buy clothes to go out that night; this is not the first time I’ve just bought clothes there and then and changed in the changing rooms for the night, we was in decent clothes but we wanted something to wear straight away to hit the bars. Please tell me, we are not the only ones who have done this? So we got some bottles and then went back to hers to get ready and then we didn’t even leave the house!!! Hilarious, we just sat there drinking and chatting to her house mate. It was so perfect, with our favourite tunes in the background. So women, always go with the flow because now i have a spare sexy outfit ready for a cheeky night out. I feel this is going to be the norm whilst travelling, Woopsy!
We need to get out more often. Be free.
Never rush an emotion; everything in life has a rhythm, it is the pauses and silences that speak the truth. – MICHAEL JACKSON
When you travel to new cities, what’s the first things you want to do?
I’ve signed up to the ‘The Gym’ which is located all over the UK, so i can go in every city i visit on tour. I’ve already had a lovely stroll around Leicester main city to see what’s around. I’ve looked at a few a cafe’s that offer gluten-free treats, so i can leave my digs (house/apartments you share or live in for a few weeks) and write my blog in different cafe’s. I just love writing in cafe‘s, I suppose! I am usually in theatres all day for tech, for at least 9-10 hours but only for 4 weeks, so i am spending a huge amount of time indoors so its nice to get out and be somewhere different. I love a nice walk to catch some fresh air, so i am enjoying my 20 minute walk to work and back. Some nights I’ve been naughty this week and I’ve been getting taxis back because we popped to the bar after work to relax. I would so recommend a 20 minute daily walk to get some vitamins from the sun, it also keeps your mind at peace. Ever since I’ve started walking to work i do feel a massive difference in the morning. It’s been a very long week for me, it feels like I’ve been in Leicester for 5 weeks already, the days can feel very long indeed. I am currently finding it hard to have a day for myself whilst working especially when i have worked all day, so by the end of the week everything and all my emotions just smack me in the face all at once. I will now try to make a little morning routine and do something else apart from just work, so right now on a Sunday morning i am currently writing. I’ve been so bad the last few weeks, so i need to get into a schedule of publishing! Let me know your thoughts, if you have any ideas.
I am really trying to be decisive and make my own choices at the moment and its going to be a work in progress. I want to be able to know what i want and do what i want without the acknowledgement of others. I’m sure a lot of you have a similar issue at times, i just can’t work out a simple question to myself of what to do, ie. eat out or eat at home, but we generally do know. We just always justify why we shouldn’t and why we should. Let just make some strong decisions and choices this week, I’ll let you know if i managed to! Should i go for a roast today with my cast? EH YES! Should i get my nails done today while I have time? EH DUH! Should i spend more money on things I don’t need? Hahhaha! Yes? See, i told you it gets hard. Now, i am smiling to myself writing a blog that maybe no one reads today, but it makes me happy! So just do what ever you need to do to get a smile on that beautiful face.
Music is the soul of happiness and I’ve realised you really need to try to listen to different genres or just any good feeling song. Try listening to a few of your favourite songs in your lunch breaks or on your way to work, every day when I’m getting ready I’m always playing my favourite artist. Amy Winehouse is a goddess, her music just takes me to a place I didn’t knew even existed. Very dramatic Samara! But seriously i love Amy, with a little bit of Bruno Mars on the side and some old school 70s. Basically think of wedding songs, any song you would play at a wedding, get it on and have a dance around naked, Choose to be happy. Have a browse on Spotify if you have or find some cool playlists on YouTube and try make it part of your routine. Play some Michael Jackson, he is my ultimate favourite artist and always will be.
Have a beautiful day.
Love Samara XOXO
I start my tour life very soon and I’m so excited/very nervous to leave London again. I got use to having everyone around, accept from my love, so now i can make an excuse with going on tour, saying it is going to bring me one step closer to being and living with my man in the end. I’m excited to see as much of the UK/ Ireland as possible.
The cities I’ll be visiting on tour is
Starting my travels Leicester first, I’m got on the train yesterday afternoon, and then i had a tasty curry for one of our cast members birthday and then i was suppose to do a Tesco online shop (very lazy), but in the end i will do one tonight and hopefully pre cook and then start wake up and do a workout before work tomorrow morning. I have joined ‘The Gym’, which is a chain branch gym that is located. all over the UK. Lucky me. Lets keep fit. I mean, with rehearsals I’ve only been to the gym once. I feel heavy! It’s time to keep our bodies healthy so we can eat what we like.
Packing is the Bain of my life, i just want to bring my whole wardrobe. But i do forget that sometimes we can just buy clothes in certain cities and buy outfits for night outs. So I brought all my old night out outfits and i shall be wearing them as casual!!! Haha. The life i guess. I’ve packed all the rehearsal and cosy wear as possible. 1 big suitcase and one normal size suitcase. Large and medium. Does anyone else find it hard to pack? If someone says you are going away for 18 months, go pack a suitcase, i think you would slightly freak out too. It’s all about enjoying my experience and feeling great with keeping myself smiling.
I did say to myself i wont buy too much because i will be touring. Well, i lied to myself because I’ve purchased a few cute bits from Zara and Miss Selfridge.
These Zara items work so well together, we all love a black body that holds us in without any lumps and bumps going on. Then these beautiful pants which fit snug around the waist accentuating your beautiful hips and then they slowly flare at the bottom stopping by the ankle.
Again Zara coat and some snazzy heels. These heels are sooo comfy, i would 100% recommend buying for when you are out having some cute cocktails or on a silly date. I will now live in this coat on tour, i love it! I mean it’s not the warmest but that’s what layers are for i guess. On tour I can’t pack all my amazing fur coats, as they take up so much room. The fuss!
Miss Selfridge high-waisted bag style pants and H&M cross style cropped top. I wore this outfit out Saturday night and it was my last night out before i started my journeys. These pants fit tight on the lower part of my legs with a slight loose fit style added around the thighs, gathering at the waist. They are in the petite section, but i am 5’6 ahaha, so i felt very slim when i was wearing these pants. It’s supposed to be a loose fit but not on me, but i like it. I always find some cute buys in H&M, but people say it’s a hit and miss store. Oh well. I love it.
Guys, keep updated with my post and bear with me. I will make a regular schedule and totally stick to it. Ive been so busy and caught up in life recently in life so bear with. I think its a good thing that life has been keeping me on my toes.
Two is never enough! Keep shining, it’s been a long amazing month and a great opening to 2018. New exciting posts to be featuring on my blog soon. We are capable of so much more than we think!
One of the safest places to be in the world is the stage – Frank Langella
Last week was so challenging for my colleagues and myself. I had to really try to not let unhappy people around me affect my own happy bubble. When doing a new project we always tend to find the faults in the good things we manage to complete and keep telling ourself that we aren’t good enough yet because we just want to do our best. We always want the best results straight away, especially as a performer i think our directors and creatives always expect to see the best of best results right away otherwise they can’t see their own work, that’s why it’s a little tricky for dancers as we have to make sure once we have learnt something, we then have to remember it and do it right away after being taught. I think our creatives do know it will take us time but most performers end up constantly trying to impress them instead of believing that their 100% is enough. Eventually we all tend to put ourselves down when we seem to just mess the little things up, which is natural. I feel we shouldn’t get so wound up about it because in the end the show will open and we will all be amazing, everything always falls into place if you have given your full commitment. When you know you are working hard enough and doing what you need to do best, then everything is going to be okay. So what if you get given notes or feedback, you need it! It will help you to be better. Try to look at how other amazing people around you work and try to take little things from them that you love and put it into your practice, we all learn from talented people, because these are the people who motivate us. I’m working with kids at the moment and their enthusiasm is insane, these kids are little ninjas and sometimes i think they can handle situation 10 times better than we do because they are happy with what they are doing. They are an inspiration to watch, they just go for it without any thinking or stress. Kids will always live in the moment.
I feel like all we need is an extra day of work to get some head space. Go and watch some theatre and tell me if you enjoyed it. Performers always tend to want to move and emotionally connect with out audiences and without an audience we don’t get to do what we do best. I watched ‘Five Guys Named Moe‘ last week with a few of my friends in it, and i just couldn’t stop singing, laughing and dancing all night, if you want a good night out with a couple of friends, this is the show to go for. I had two-day weekend for the first time and i watched ‘Harry Potter And The Cursed Child‘, it was insaneeee! The play takes you to another place you have never felt before; with constant awe and amazement; it was like I wasn’t watching a play but i was in fact watching a film live in action because it was so graphic. Please find some time and a friend to go watch this show, its indescribable. Harry Potter is a two-part show, so do expect a long but worth it day or you can just watch the first and second part different days. Your choice! So when you find that extra day off work, instead of doing those annoying house chores, get out and go and watch a show in the West end! I have to promote what i do because i don’t put in this much hard work in for no reason.
All about feeling cosy and making trips to the theatre, try the Monki new in collection!
Here’s some of my faves
Thank you for reading! I hope you book a show asap. Haha
No one can defeat you or me!!
Being free and going with your natural instincts is so beautiful to feel. No one knows you as much as you know yourself. If someone doesn’t understand you, they still need to respect you, and the same as to you as-well, if you don’t understand someone’s ways, you should still respect that person. Everyone has their own story, but I will never agree with someone purposely disrespecting or talking down to someone. It’s not on! I would love for you all to speak up and voice your opinion at some point, so if you see someone within your workspace being treated unequally, please speak up or take note. Yes, Make sure you haven’t been the person who is victimising others. I know we’re not all perfect, but being happy and confident is perfect in my eyes.
Let’s give compliments and lift each other. We are always told we are not doing things right, but I think some people may forget to notice or compliment the great things you have achieved. Who says you can’t give yourself compliments, it’s better from your inner self then a stranger, Let’s be honest.
Love and kisses. It’s been a hard week but inspirational week.